HEALING (any gender, early twenties to late life)
Your body will tell you that something is very wrong. Will you be able to transcend that? I couldn't. For the first time in a long time I couldn't.
The five years we've been together babe, you taught me that fear and suffering weren't real. I was able to do so many things I was afraid of: Quit drinking, start up a new business... finally go in for the surgery I'd been putting off.
When they made the first incision, I wanted to scream. But I was paralyzed: The first part of the drugs had kicked in but the second part never did... the part that takes the pain away. Two hours, babe, two hours feeling everything. Every fraction of every second, all my cells are screaming "wrong, wrong, wrong!"
My life is dark again, sweetie. I need you. I didn't tell you about my experience, because, because... because I thought there was no way you'd understand. But there is a way, isn't there? Gerald knows how to separate the drug effects. When it's over, you can teach me how you were able to transcend it. Or how some things really are just horrible and we have to live with them. Either way, this is why I love you... you help me heal.
Copyright 2016 by Matt Haynes.
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